just being honest

ummm hi guys :)

gue cuma pengen jujur aja kali ini...

gue sangat expect lebih, tp sygnya gue keduluan.

i dont know, as if like my heart are floating, or burning :(

im not a special person tho, im just me, nothing elses

sometimes i would act like i dont care, but this isnt working.

that time when you want to scream, but you cant.

or on that time when you really want to say the truth, but you cant.

that time when you want to spilled everything.

that time when you want to see those eyes.

that time when you want to smile again, ear to ear, with your blushed cheeks.

that time when you have butterflies all over your tummy.

that time when you heart beating like crazy.

that time when you.... cant get everything you want.

that time when you cant have all of it.

that time when its all just a memories.

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its hurt. when everything like this.

simply and truthfully, i just want to be called by "di" again.

di. di. di. di. di.

today i swear im not doing anything...

guys. im here. im alive. yeah.

its been a long time i didn't post something in my blog with english (haha maybe? however i forgot). yesterday i celebrate my dear husband birthday, yep the man in my post before this. hahaha lol i declare him as my new husband now :P i already break up with kyuhyun because he's a got a more trashy girls around him. i just dont like him anymore. then when im feel so alone i saw Yun hubby music video and live performance, and his reality show. its just feels like a whole world crashing. actually, my heart does hahaha. actually, i like him from very old time... in 2009... when i see Wrong Number music video. he's so handsome i could've die. but kyuhyun take my heart first... and then... yeah. *WARNING, FAN GIRL POST ATTACK*

About school... great. I've moved to Social Class like i told you before. It is great. I feel so great. I feel more eased. I dont need to study chemical, physics, and biology anymore. IT FEELS SO GOOD. Hell yeah.

Sooo i dont really have a pressure these days, but my feelings stay the same. I truly cant change my feelings at all :)

kay not really a long post, bye, xx

Little notes for my everything, in 6 February 2012 {}

“I love to joke around but in actuality, I’m the loneliest.” - Jung Yunho

He's the one, my U-Know.
Although he feel lonely, Cassiopeia and BigEast always there for him.
He is the truly leader who fight for the group until the last drop of tears and sweat.
He protect the group like there's nothing more important than that.
He want to keep it as 5 no matter how, in any ways.
His dedication to SM Entertainment and DBSK/TVXQ/TOHOSHINKI is very great, and very faithful.
He's the birthday boy today, so lets greet him (from far away, from me, yeah) with a sweet HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
I wish anything but the best for you, you are my favorite, you are my best, still as ever, and forever.


Always Keep The Faith,
I Love You