hey guysss!!!

hey guyyyyssss its been a long time. you know im getting busier these days. many school things. so depressed. but there's one assignment that made me happier as hell................... PROJECT MOVIES uyeaaayyy!!! i like it so much because im into making movies thingy. and then many homeworks to do. test. im shoooo crazy. but but school is getting fun, yeah. hmm actually school is tiring, i put a little sarcasm at my last opinion haha.

now i keep scrolling at my twitter timeline. actually i really miss the old time with my bestfriends!!!! it is so damn awesome i cant even. and then and then when people starting to annoyed and insult me, thats the best one!!!

now im stu-dying math with my dearest alya meutia {}{} byeee guyssss hope to see ya soon :*

just being honest

ummm hi guys :)

gue cuma pengen jujur aja kali ini...

gue sangat expect lebih, tp sygnya gue keduluan.

i dont know, as if like my heart are floating, or burning :(

im not a special person tho, im just me, nothing elses

sometimes i would act like i dont care, but this isnt working.

that time when you want to scream, but you cant.

or on that time when you really want to say the truth, but you cant.

that time when you want to spilled everything.

that time when you want to see those eyes.

that time when you want to smile again, ear to ear, with your blushed cheeks.

that time when you have butterflies all over your tummy.

that time when you heart beating like crazy.

that time when you.... cant get everything you want.

that time when you cant have all of it.

that time when its all just a memories.

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its hurt. when everything like this.

simply and truthfully, i just want to be called by "di" again.

di. di. di. di. di.

today i swear im not doing anything...

guys. im here. im alive. yeah.

its been a long time i didn't post something in my blog with english (haha maybe? however i forgot). yesterday i celebrate my dear husband birthday, yep the man in my post before this. hahaha lol i declare him as my new husband now :P i already break up with kyuhyun because he's a got a more trashy girls around him. i just dont like him anymore. then when im feel so alone i saw Yun hubby music video and live performance, and his reality show. its just feels like a whole world crashing. actually, my heart does hahaha. actually, i like him from very old time... in 2009... when i see Wrong Number music video. he's so handsome i could've die. but kyuhyun take my heart first... and then... yeah. *WARNING, FAN GIRL POST ATTACK*

About school... great. I've moved to Social Class like i told you before. It is great. I feel so great. I feel more eased. I dont need to study chemical, physics, and biology anymore. IT FEELS SO GOOD. Hell yeah.

Sooo i dont really have a pressure these days, but my feelings stay the same. I truly cant change my feelings at all :)

kay not really a long post, bye, xx

Little notes for my everything, in 6 February 2012 {}

“I love to joke around but in actuality, I’m the loneliest.” - Jung Yunho

He's the one, my U-Know.
Although he feel lonely, Cassiopeia and BigEast always there for him.
He is the truly leader who fight for the group until the last drop of tears and sweat.
He protect the group like there's nothing more important than that.
He want to keep it as 5 no matter how, in any ways.
His dedication to SM Entertainment and DBSK/TVXQ/TOHOSHINKI is very great, and very faithful.
He's the birthday boy today, so lets greet him (from far away, from me, yeah) with a sweet HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
I wish anything but the best for you, you are my favorite, you are my best, still as ever, and forever.


Always Keep The Faith,
I Love You

first post in 2012. hey :-)

*2012 greetings pic from me hahahaha lol*

HELLO, HAPPY *late* NEW YEAR 2012 :D

Selamat tahun baru all my readers, semoga kita semua semakin baik lagi di tahun ini! :-) Untuk gue, gaada permintaan yang spesifik tahun ini. Kalo taun lalu kan... Pengen lulus UN, dapet sekolah yang diinginkan, sukses, dan bisa banggain ortu. Dan alhamdulillah tercapai heehee ;) Kalo taun ini gimana yaaa.... Mmmmm kaya yg gue bilang td, gak spesifik minta apa. Kayaknya sih tetep jadi another labil year ahemmm (kyaaaa >.<) sebenernya inimah gue yang labil gatau mau apa. FYI gue ambil IPS guyssssss! Nah ini kejadian bulan desember tapi baru gue omongin skrg gyahaha. Gue seneng bgt, sumpah. Gue gak sedih karena ini yang gue mau :D Insya Allah gue siap ngejalanin awal taun ini dengan lancar tanpa hambatan, gak pake stres2an, dibawa have fun aja, lupain segala macem yang buruk2 di 2011, dan jadi anak kelas satu yang baik O:)

Gak kerasa yah tinggal satu semester lagi di kelas satu... Banyak kejadian selama gue masuk SMA, hal yang bener2 baru buat gue, dan cukup berat. Yang sedihnya lagi, gue gak bisa ngerasain nyaris semua kejadian2 dan acara sekolah gue. Ini sedih. Demi apapun gue mau gabung sama kalian guys, tapi... u know my parents. Kalian mesti tau betapa inginnya gue ikut konvoy dll. Ikut acara sekolah. Apapun club, ekskul, dan kegiatan yang gue mau ikut pasti gakdibolehin, dan pastinya karena alasan yang logis. Dan gue terima itu karena omongan nykp gue bener. Jujur ini berat banget buat gue, gue sedih, gue takut, gue labil, gue bingung. Sebenernya gue cuma pengen minta maaf sebesar-besarnya... ngga enak bgt :"""(

Selama liburan natal dan taun baru ini gue lumayan jarang dirumah... Mostly di bandung tentunya. Gue selama liburan ke surabaya 5 hari... Anyer 3 hari... Bandung sampe 2 minggu kali ya... Rencana gue dan keluarga yang insya allah mau ke eropa, gagal. Ke amerika, gagal. Ke jepang, visanya belum di confirm. Ke sidney, sekeluarga gak begitu tertarik. Jadinya insya allah... *jengjengjeng* ke korea!!! huff huff sebenernya ini jadwal awal kita semua yang belum tercapai. Doakan sajaaa liburanku yang sangat telat ini jadi hehehehehe :)

Kayaknya untuk selanjutnya gue update beberapa foto gue aja meskipun sangat tidak penting hahahahaha!

*Girls day out at my crib, swim with mine rifkha sarah dewi :D*

*with mum at anyer. pardon my hair that covered my eyes -_-" bcs its very windy there huff*

*with little sista at Zangrandi in surabaya. lol my expression i didnt like it tho fufu*

HAHAHA kok jadi gue yg malu yah pake photo update segalaaa wkwk -_-" btw btw gue motong rambut lagi loh untuk kesekian kalinya... gangerti tujuannya apa (sebenernya sih buang sial) tapi rambutnya malah jadi bagus! loving my new haircut :-) btw gue pengen bgt copot behel, tapi takut nyesel gituu. huff gimana dong ya masi labil nih

Terakhir.. buat menutup post pertama gue di 2012... gue cuma mau bilang kalo gue tahun ini bakal lebih hidup. Kan taun lalu lebih banyak tekanan tuh, insya allah sekarang bisa lebih tenang dan nyantai. Harapan gue.. pengen banget bisa ranking 3 besar di kelas IPS yang baru ini, semoga pilihan gue benar dan gue bisa sukses!!! Amin!!! Doakan ya guysss :-)


Niteeee, sleep tight, dont forgot to dream about me lol haha byeeee :*

HUHA B-)

hey guys wish me luck for my last semester I exam. ipa/ips? let's see.

xoxo my cyber friends

p.s. im in my great condition now, physically and mentally, thank god everything has flew away to HELL. *but currently still burning my problems away and haven't done it YET*

miss them like a LOT